Mirror
Check.

When I publish something, the first thing I check is how it performed.

I write what I think will travel, more than what I actually want to say.

The dopamine of a high-performing post still pulls me, even when I notice it.

I avoid publishing smaller, slower pieces because they will not perform.

When something hurts, my first instinct is to cut, refuse, or burn the bridge.

When something hurts, my first instinct is to stay close to the wound and document it.

Anger is a useful tool I have learned to deploy at the right target, not the wrong one.

Longing is a state I am willing to live in for long stretches, not a problem to solve.

I trust my no more than I trust my yes.

I trust my longing more than I trust my plan.

I name the AI tools and other instruments I used when I publish something they touched.

I would let a visible imperfection ship if removing it would hide the construction.

I accept that the audience who wants me has to find me, not the other way around.

I would refuse a sponsorship or commission that required me to bend the work.

I notice that different parts of me want different things in the same moment.

Under stress, I notice a strong urge for fast destructive action (drink, rage, cut someone off, burn a bridge).

I notice an inner voice that pre-emptively manages situations to avoid pain.

I notice an inner voice that holds longing and would rather wait than perform.

There is a substance, behaviour, or feed I return to when I do not want to feel something.

There is a memory or pattern in my life I keep busy to avoid.